My story is nothing like yours & that's ok

27 Years Young

This is my story and it does not have to be anything like anybody else's. So many years of trying to live up to people's standards or opinions, always trying to fit in, walking on eggshells and trying to be "good enough", its all a midst that is quickly fading when you were born to stand out, be different and break the mold!

As I sit here and wonder where this life will take me I can only thank God for allowing me to live for these 27 years. It has not been long but it seems much longer. I have dealt with so much and so much has been thrown my way since before I was born, before I was conceived in my mother's womb there was a fight going on for me not to make it because of the greatness that was put inside of me. I don't say that to boast about me but about God, my God, the one living inside of me, the one who died for you and me.

Like I said earlier, this is my story and I honestly do not expect it to be like any other. For a long time I thought my life had to be like someone else's or things had to go a certain way, I thought I had to be married and with kids by a certain date or with a successful business to provide the fancy yacht for my dad and the high paying job to live comfortably so mom and dad won't have to worry but what if that is not the way Jesus made it out to be? I mean is that what this life is really about? I'll leave that for another time, back to my story.

So yes this young 27 year old woman was born in Cuba after 9 long months of bed rest from my beautiful mother due to the high risk pregnancy that I was, as I blessed God's mighty earth on August 9, 1989. I was born and half raised in Havana, Cuba until I migrated to the U.S. at 9 years old when that same beautiful hard working dentist of a mother won the Cuban lottery and we were chosen to come from Cuba to the United States! I remember just like yesterday leaving the place I had known all my life, all my friends but being promised a better future and a brighter life where I could make choices and be what I wanted to be and do whatever I wanted to do with my life, as long as I did something, that was all that mattered...

To be continued.....

Travel and see my loves

I am by far the coolest person I know. lol. just kidding, but really, I think I like who I am becoming. Like who books a flight out of nowhere I mean I have reasons my godson and his family moved to GA but still lol who does that just randomly books a flight to be in another state for 24 hours with the people you love? It is absolutely ridiculous and amazing!  I miss my beautiful St Felix family of four so so so much! I can't wait to see them and be with them! Thankfully through Spirit I was able to book the flight for under $70 round trip which is not bad at all, I mean come on we spend $70 on a meal we cant spend it to go to another state and explore and see the beauty of mountains and fresh air and people we love? I can't ask for more! I am so thankful God is so amazing and His grace, His love keeps overflowing as we let Him lead the way, because He is the way, the truth and the life!!!

P.S. In case you want to know more about booking with spirit for the low-low, send me a message I'll be more than glad to help you travel the US for under $70 round trips :)

These are my beautiful kiddos that I get to go and spend some time with <3

with every blessing comes a trial

with every blessing comes a trial, with every trial comes endurance or resistance, you choose but if you endure you will feel joy, a joy that is everlasting.

these boys ain't loyal

This is going to be a tough one... but somebody's gotta do it, and I was blessed with a bold spirit and an amazing attitude.. full of gratitude! & that's exactly where I want to start at because I have realized that one must be thankful for all that we experience and go through on a DAILY BASIS! Crazy I know, but as time goes on I am learning more and more that not only this too shall pass but also it is serving a purpose, there's a reason for it and I am learning something from it so i must be grateful! It can be something I want, something I don't want in a person that I am learning and that my friends believe it or not is shaping us and in some weird way shaping and allowing us to see what we want, don't want, will settle for and will not settle for.

In my short time on earth I believe I have been in relationships whether intimate or not with plenty of men and boys, to come to the conclusion that "these boys ain't loyal". Notice I said boys and not necessarily men because there is a difference, men know what they want and go after it, boys like to play games and go around seeing what sticks to them... plain and simple.

Okay... so here is what I have experienced, now don't knock me down I have actually gone through this in the past at different points in my life with different people, different situations and based on my experience here is the data I have collected.

If a boy/men does not have a vision or plan for his life he really can't take you seriously. (taking you out to dinner, drinks, dating, having sleepovers and sex with you is not taking you seriously) why do I say this you may ask? He has no real agenda for his life and neither for you in his life. I say that because if a man really knew the purpose that he was created for and the help that he need to accomplish that purpose he would realize the need he has for you in life because of the help you will provide and how you will be able to help one another out.

Countless times have I tried to help someone I was in a relationship with in some shape or form and countless times have I wanted them to see my potential and how I can be of benefit to them or build a life together and countless times, again and again I have seen it demolished right in front of my eyes or even backfire. It never really ends up in any good because these boys don't feel like they need help, they feel like they got themselves or they have mom that helps them, either or they have no need for you so only choose to see you as an option and a form of entertainment, try to pass some time or see how far they can get with you.

Even sadder is that this world is now getting used to this fake instant gratification from instagram hearts and facebook likes. They run to a quick snap of a friend only one picture away. It is sad what dating in this day has come down to. There is no consistency and all this independence, all this social media portraying of what "bae" should look like, all these DM's that are unheard of, unseen snaps, no one knows what loyalty is nowadays, it is rare and it doesn't exist to many and this technology is only making  it worse!

What happened to the days you used to talk to one person and make things work, better yet pursue that person to pursue a future together, I think that's the different between men and boys. One knows what they want while the other is constantly in search of it. What happens to the days when being loyal meant everything? Having someones back and supporting them was one of the first things that needed to be there? This world as we know it, if we don't do our part to change it and correct something when we know is wrong is doomed! Jesus, please take the wheel! This world needs more of you! P.S. For my sisters out there, please know that if he is not chasing after Jesus then he shouldn't be chasing after you. That's what the next post will be about how we must remember our worth and value and not try to justify or rationalize why we should stay in a relationship we know we have no business being in!

I finally said Yes!

October 6, 2016

Why you love me, I'll never know... but I'll tell the world until everyone knows! 

It has seriously been a RELENTLESS PURSUIT. God has been chasing after me like no other, like no one ever has or will, for that matter. I am truly humbled, honored, privileged to be chosen to be given all of this love, mercy and grace which I thought I was so undeserving off. I am thankful to God for not leaving my side when things got ugly and even when I turned away from Him and did not seek Him like I should have. I am thankful He did not give up even when I thought I did. 

So, with that being said.... I finally said Yes! I said yes to God! October 6, 2016 was the day I said I do and I will and yes yes yes! I honestly did not plan it or saw it happening this way, but He did! (Because He knows us better than we know ourselves)

You see, I thought I was "married to Jesus" this whole time but little did I know I was only dating him! What am I saying, I sound like a crazy woman lol but I have to be real with God and myself first and after a couple of heart checks I realized I would go on dates with Jesus from time to time and then go on dates with people or things of this world I had already dropped in my past.

When you are in a commitment, relationship, or "engaged" to someone you should not be talking or entertaining other people or things and that's what happened friends, that's part of my story. Crazy thing is that while growing up this was something that was instilled in me from my parents, when you have a boyfriend it's that person that you are committed to and no one else but something happened along the way where something changed. 

After much running around and not being pleased by anything or anyone in this world, (the Lord allowed a lot to happen so that I can see that it truly is all vanity like Ecclesiastes says) I finally decided (a choice and decision I came to make based on past experiences) it was time to step my commitment up a notch and re-commit myself to Him alone and not others until and if He decides to bring someone else in my life that will love me, pursue me, chase me, treat me, value me, accept me, challenge me and appreciate me the way that He does! I want to and need to be FAITHFUL to Him first and then if it is meant to be with someone else at least I will have this solid foundation of being faithful and loyal to God first before everyone and everything else. 

Listen up, this is hard, it took me five years to say yes to this commitment, and now I am even more scared, this is something serious and it is not to be played with but I figured if I don't start here by submitting to God now in my single season how do I expect to humble myself and submit myself to any other human being? It took a while to get me here but I am grateful that God doesn't give up on us even if other people do. It is going to be hard but no one said relationships were easy and that's exactly what I am doing building a real relationship with my one true King the one that will be with me eternity and beyond because this life is fleeting, these riches, these looks, none of this goes to heaven with us so why focus on anything else but that which will last through eternity & beyond? Like Luke says, the birds don't work and they get food so why do we worry about our tomorrow when today is not even done with yet? 

Tunnel vision to what God has for me and what He wants from me. I know there is a lot for me to do on this planet earth until I am called home so I will follow Jesus as He leads me to my promise land and all that He has called me to be! There's a lot to do and not enough time, I am done wanting to be someone's wife because I am someone's bride to be and His love is like nothing I can get from anyone on earth. His love just fills you up and makes you feel free and alive! 

King Jesus and Glendy till the end! 

Comment below with your questions I would love to answer any doubts! 

Beauty in Single Season

Wow! Who would have thought that there's beauty in being single? Being free to do what you want when you want how you want without having to live physically to please anyone else?! Aahhhh talk about sweet sweet freedom! Going to Walmart grocery shopping at 1am?! Who does that? Yup I sure do. Lunchables and Vanilla Coke in bed at 2:50am?! Who does that? Yup the freedom of #foreveralone provides that! I am so happy to experience this right now because I know one day things might not be like this so I am trying to enjoy and make the best out of every day!

Loving & Leaving

Sometimes walking away when you feel like staying is the best you can do. Sometimes letting go when it feels wrong is better to do then to stay knowing you should go. At times you may want to stay but you know you have to go. All of it hurts, there's pain that comes from loving and leaving and loving and staying. There's pain that comes from staying when you know you should go because they are not taking you seriously. You know their potential, know how things could be but they don't so how dare you stay.., but really how dare you go? When and how do you know it's time to go? Or time to stay? Sometimes it's easier to go at that moment but then you stay questioning it when you are in your loneliness. Should you have left? Is that what love does? Does love really walk away? Or love endures and stays through the good and bad. Why is it that we think if we love something we must let it go and if it comes back it was always yours. Is that a lie we have been fed this whole

Time because I have left time and time again and I still wonder if that was the right choice for some. 

I'm thankful for the alone times to think breathe and go, go as I please when I want so for that I'm thankful. Thankful that God has a plan and that I no longer go, I now stay at His feet until He says otherwise so he can mold me and shape me into the kingdom woman and wife He has called me to be! 

Beauty in Single Season

Single for a reason & a season

Finally! I have arrived at a place where I am actually happy to be single for this season in my life. It does get "lonely" some days but I most importantly know that God is with me at all times so I must feel complete because I am with Him. I don't need anyone or anything else in this world because at the end of the day no one can satisfy like He does and only He can.

There is so much to do, it is such a beautiful thing to be single, the freedom that I have is beyond amazing. I mean this is coming now from the girl that has been in relationships for the past 14 years non stop pretty much. I mean yes I have gotten breaks in between where I am single for seasons, for months but then someone comes along, I fall for it, give my heart away, have it shatter into pieces and then I find myself, "alone" picking up those pieces. The beauty is that while I am down low on the floor picking up the pieces of my broken heart, I find Jesus there telling me He loves me over and over again and I find contentment, fulfillment and joy in that. I must admit, I am scared to love again, maybe scared is not the word but cautious. I am tired of being hurt honestly, I just want to be alone with God and pursue Him and no one or anything else. I wish all outside distractions can be zapped and I can just continue to do as I am doing, serving Him and His people.

You see, for a long time I was the girl that did not like to be alone, I was always with someone or a bunch of people. I liked to stay with a group of friends, hang out, do whatever, but I did not like to be alone. I always had somewhere to go, someone to see, something to do. God had to show me that I do not always have to be with someone, doing something, going somewhere. I can be happy alone at home with Him. I can be satisfied going to eat breakfast alone with Him and Him alone (God). I can be happy just enjoying His presence in my life and not having to be with someone else. It feels good to not want anything with anyone just because I have wanted something with someone for so long. I now feel like no I am good alone, I don't need you or anything else.

There is so much to write from how you will never find true happiness in that person because true happiness and fulfillment can only come from God and truly loving yourself the way He loves you. Let yourself be loved by our Father as I am still learning to be loved. It was always easy for me to love and not be loved in return and that's why I always got hurt, I always gave too much and received too little but that is probably how God feels with us... He gives us so much of His love and we sometimes don't know how to receive it. I just realized .. God loves us so so so much, If we could only fully receive His love we would be so much better off and have such a better understanding of who we are because of Who's we are! Thank you Jesus!

Going through the fire?

Have you been feeling attacked from all sorts of places, faces, spaces lately? Do you feel like asking when will this stop? Going through the fire is not only hot, almost burning but it can start to become exhausting and make you want to run away, give up and quit. Whatever it is you are going through, whatever mountain you are facing, hear me out.... I am here to remind you these four words which will be very useful to you in the long run "DO NOT GIVE UP". I do not know what it looks like for you but I sure do know that in the midst of the storm the answer is not to give up, yes it might come up as a question but you rebuke and cast that thought out immediately because giving up is plainly not an option.

Please be reminded that according to God's word which will not return to Him void "These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold--though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world." - 1 Peter 1:7 NLT

With much love and respect I tell you this, I am not worthy of being alive today but by the loving mercy and grace of God I am, and every day that I wake up I do give thanks because I know that He still has a plan for my life, it is not over, He has not given up so how dare I give up on the King of Kings? Listen, if the enemy is coming after you, if you are being faced with trial after trial, please know the enemy's job is to rob and steal your joy, happiness, peace and everything else he can take from you, stand firm, be aware, know that he is coming, he does not sit still, he is carefully plotting against you so you cannot fall for that, you must stand firm on your guard. Please know that Satan is threatened by you, Yes that's right, you heard me, you are a threat to your enemy, therefore he will try to do everything to bring you down.... but stand firm because Jesus overcame Satan and the world and greater is He that is in us than he that is in the world. 

"Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil.

He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour." 1 Peter 5:8

I know that I know that I know that this which is happening in my life right now and day by day what I am going through will be all for His glory. He will be able to use this for His glory, my mess will turn into His Message, my tests will turn into my Testimony, for that I am grateful. I am grateful He loves us so dearly that He does not give up on us.

I am grateful for the process even though I might get frustrated at times I am learning that sanctification takes time and so does real transformation for it to be effective long term, so today I remind you to be encouraged and enjoy the journey that God has prepared for you, He is there with you and for you, He will never leave you nor forsake you.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." -Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV

I will bring that group through the fire and make them pure. I will refine them like silver and purify them like gold. They will call on my name, and I will answer them. I will say, 'These are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.'" - Zechariah 13:9 NLT

Remember that ALL of those things that feel bad right now and make you cry, that boss, that teacher, that friend, that parent, that job, that pain, that experience, that heartbreak, those emotions will eventually work out for your good because Romans 8:28 tells us that ALL things will work out for our good.  

{And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.} Romans 8:28 AMP

What are you fighting?

What are you struggling with? 

Give it to God today, let his peace rule your hearts, let your faith be strengthened.

Prayer: I love you and I thank you for loving me so much that you do not give up on me Lord, you continue to work in me each and every day little by little I learn something new, you never leave me the same, for that I am thankful. I know that all these things will work out for my good so I ask for the strength to endure the pain and suffering I am now facing which is nothing compared to what you once faced. I ask for courage to stand strong against the enemy and his plans and to do the right thing even when it no longer feels right. If there is anything we may have done against you Father right now I ask for your forgiveness and ask that you cleanse us of all unrighteousness and make us holy like you are. I proclaim I will live this life by faith and not by my feelings, taking steps of faith that will only strengthen my relationship with you as we go together from glory to glory. Thank you Lord for giving us a peace that surpasses all understanding, a smile and a joy that comes from you and you alone which all can enjoy from, it is in Jesus precious and mighty name that we pray, Amen!

Caroude & Max Maternity Shoot

I recently had the beautiful blessing to be able to hold a camera (not mine) for the ministry I am a part of and I have developed this interest which I have always had but now more on {photography}. I love the beauty of capturing memories and moments for a lifetime, it is just a hobby for now but only God knows what it could lead to. With that being said, about two weeks ago I got the uttermost honor and privilege to photograph my beautiful brother and sister Caroude & Max as they welcome this new journey in their lives right before leaving to Maryland with their bundle of joy who is still in the oven! Can't wait to meet you baby boy! For now mommy and daddy will continue to have their fun until your arrival!