Tuesday, March 31, 2015

The beginning of something new; Victory is here!



Today was not just another day, something was different about today, I was determined and made up my mind to make it a great day no matter what. I decided to not let things that are out of my control take away my joy and happiness which I realized ultimately that must come from God. From the very beginning of my day, I woke up just on time to get dressed, brush my teeth and run out of the door (thank God I had showered last night and washed and ironed my hair). I was on my way to school and I had a few minutes to pass by McDonald's and get a delicious-I-am-so-obsessed-with Sausage biscuit with cheese, not very good for my temple I must add (which I knew) and I had actually baked my famous banana-nut-chocolate-chip-bread in order to not buy it and I actually even bought iced-coffee which I served myself a big cup off in order to save $1 at McDonald's. I am at the drive-thru and they are taking forever and a day, machines are down, they are only accepting cash, I must order in the first window and there are five cars in front of me. I wanted to leave, time was passing by, I needed to be in class on time and knew it would take 10-15 minutes to get there, find parking and walk to class.

I finally get to class (5 minutes late) by God's grace the teacher was out making copies. I sat front row like I usually do and started studying and reviewing for the quiz that was about to take place. Normal as usual and just praying to God to forgive me for not studying enough for something I actually enjoy, like, have a passion for and want to know more about and prayed for help but I knew deep inside that I should have read more and did not feel prepared, boy was I begging for the teacher not to come to class and to re-schedule the test but just a few minutes later the professor showed up of course (silly me). At that moment I was just like Lord its on you. Thank God the teacher not only did a review of the quiz but he shared about how God provided for him in the same way God provided manna on a daily basis for Joseph and the Israelite as they were going through the wilderness at a point of his life when he first came from his country. It really encouraged me to depend on God daily for my daily bread not only physically, financially, but spiritual, every single day full dependence on Him and Him alone. I am beyond grateful to God for allowing me to take this old testament history class not only have I learned that this is what matter and that this is the career path I am taking but it has also confirmed my calling and new found passion in this world; Pursuing Jesus.

Friday, March 27, 2015

Let your Light Shine!


Matthew 5:14 Tells us "You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make YOU light-bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I've put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand---Shine!

I am so thankful to God for sending Jesus to die on that cross for me to not only be able to live but to be able to have a life where I can share my light with others. This love and light that I have been chosen and given is not at all for me to keep to myself but to share with others. Share what God has done and where he brought me from. I can now smile even when I am in pain, but this pain does not compare to the pain I once felt. I thank God for my transformation. First it was a transformation of the mind which led to transforming heart which led to transforming my actions. Today I sit here at home on a Friday night. 1. Not wanting to be laying at some mans bed that does not belong to me. 2. Not wanting to want to be around so called "friends" who only want you to drink, get high or "hang out". 3. Not wanting to make t-shirts, but actually wanting to read my bible, sit at the feet of Jesus and spend that quality time which is what has gotten me this far. I cannot and will not forget the One who has changed me. I feel bad that people don't believe or understand that Jesus can change your life completely around. I for once have experienced that. I no longer say yes to everyone or continuously eloquently in search of a constant high, either from pleasing others or my flesh. I still struggle with many other things, self control, discipline, organization but I thank God for taking away those things that were not honoring or pleasing to Him little by little, one by one, because He is a patient, loving, merciful, kind, GOD!! The one & only! The Alpha & Omega!