God allows pain

I am not certain the reason that God allows pain, sometimes I think that it can be so we can experience Him in a deeper way, be closer to Him, I mean ultimately He experienced pain excruciating pain that not many can come close to. As tears roll down my cheeks I give thanks for knowing God intimately, knowing Him and having a real relationship with Him because through the pain and through the trials He is there! I honestly do not know what I would do without Him!1 I would not be here that is for sure!!

The hurt within the pain

That sad weird moment when people judge you because they sadly don't understand you.

What can I say other then you haven't walked a mile in my shoes and I honestly don't want you to because I don't want you to experience the pain that I've gone through the pain that I have to deal with or the debilitating pain that I go through on a daily basis emotionally, mentally and physically. 

Just know that I love you and that although you don't understand why I do what I do it's not okay to judge me or mistreat me or treat me like I am any less than you because it hurts me, I am human and have feelings too and like it hurts you when I'm doing something that you think is hurting me, please know in a way it is helping me, but it actually hurts me when you don't understand how it is helping me. 

Decision making ❤️ Jesus changed my life

DECISIONS, DECISIONS, DECISIONS...

THANK YOU GOD FOR HAVING MY BACK, ALWAYS! <3

Can decision making be hard by God or what?! Oh em gee gee ❤️ I am so thankful to God for sending his son Jesus Christ to die for me.

Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord. (Ephesians 6:1-4 ESV)

I wish my parents would have brought me up in the truth of Christ, the discipline and instruction of The Lord, they did not and that pushes me to one day do it with my own. I am thankful I am only 25 years old and met The Lord 3 years ago, I am not perfect and sure knows I want to be but I must come to the conclusion and acceptance that the only perfect one who was and is to come is Jesus Christ our lord & savior. Because of what Christ did for us I will not be quiet and I will not stop sharing what he has done and will continue to do in my life.

I am sure that He that began a good work in me will complete it, I am thankful because although I'm not where I want to be and probably should be I know God has not given up on me just yet, I know I am on my way to greatness, day by day, through the struggles, trials, pain and suffering I will honor God with my life and my body. 

And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment,

What then? Only that in every way, whether in pretense or in truth, Christ is proclaimed, and in that I rejoice. Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help of the Spirit of Jesus Christ this will turn out for my deliverance, as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. If I am to live in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me. Yet which I shall choose I cannot tell. 

Philippians 1:9, 18-22 ESV

To be continued........